My LAST First Day of Classes

Monday, May 9, 2016

My LAST First Day of Classes

Yes, you read that right people, today marked my last first day that I will be sitting in a classroom. So surreal, yet terrifying at the same time. The next step after this is the USMLE Step 1 in October, and the preparation starts now.

Fourth semester is a grind. Classes are MWF and thankfully Tues/Thurs are "off", but still may be filled with hospital visits, AIST prep, and simulation sessions. I feel as though this semester for a lot of students is the "easiest" and they can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I also feel that it is the most daunting, as our time on the island comes to a close, the "real world" sets in.

Entering my last semester on the island is one that I am still trying to find the word to describe. I am shocked at how fast the time has gone, and I am overwhelmed at the material that we have learned so far. I feel proud, but I still feel like there is so much to learn. Thankfully, Ross has a program called IMF (Internal Medical Foundations) after the island and before clinicals to get students up to speed on entering the next step in our studies: clinical core rotations and elective rotations, essentially our third and fouth years.

I am happy to say that I made Dean's List for the third consecutive semester, and I am going to try for 4/4 on the island. I study just a bit harder to make the grade, and with this semester starting off with a sprint, I am going to try and keep that motivation. We also have a cumulative final at Ross (mine is on August 19th) where we get two weeks to study sixteen months of material. I shutter just thinking about it. Two weeks for some students is plenty, but for most, two weeks is definitely not enough to review all of the material that we have learned thus far. That is why my preparation is starting right now, every week I will pick a day to review all of the material from way back in first semester, one year ago exactly! I will try and make notes and highlight my trusty first aid book, along with Uworld and Rx questions. If your an incoming Ross student reading this, do not worry, you will find what works best for you and if you do not recognize any of the resource names, you will have plenty of time to research them. Get through Ross first, then the USMLE exam later (I am still working on that thought myself).

On another note, I got the best email today. One of my favourite MERP professors, or I should just say favourite professor, emailed me today to see if I would like to be interviewed to talk about the MERP program for prospective and current MERP students. I have to send in a headshot and another picture of myself studying and my profile write-up will be on the news section of both the MERP and RUSM websites, pretty cool! With Ross sharing my blog a couple times (thank you to whoever in is Admin reading my blog posts!), it has really created an avenue for me to reach a lot of people, which is amazing. I absolutely love answering your questions, and sorry if I say "refer to my blog", as a lot of students tend to ask my experience with Ross thus far, and instead of typing all my thoughts out again, I just thought it would be easier for people to read what I have to say on here!

I usually do posts in the morning, but I know that I would never have a last first day of classes EVER again, so I made sure to do a post tonight, even though it is 9:30pm. With Domi falling asleep on my legs as I type this in bed, I think it is time to say goodnight. One more semester guys! Thank you for being on this journey with me!

Bye for now,

-E xo

Goodbye 3X, It's Been Real.

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Goodbye 3X, It's Been Real.

Hey followers! I thought I would take the morning after my exam to relax, recuperate, and write a blog post as I am almost done with Semester 3! So crazy how time flies! I say goodbye to this semester as we have one more exam left next week. ONE. MORE. EXAM. (Thankfully) But to be honest, I really liked the material that we have learned during these 13 weeks. It was pathology, pharmacology, microbiology, a lot of the complex concepts that we will be seeing in our own future practice.

Right now, looking at my desk, I have four piles, all labeled according to the exams we have had thus far. 4 piles. 6 days. 1 NBME final. The difference with this final is that Ross does not write any of the questions, meaning the questions are coming from the National Board of Medical Examiners <-- anyone else freaked out by this title? This final is our first look at how all of our board questions will be presented. I am not too sure what to expect, and to be honest, I am not too sure how to study for this one. I have heard many different opinions about using your notes, not using your notes, pathoma, not pathoma (I have never used pathoma and I almost have 100% in pathology right now), everyone is so different and if I have learned anything this semester, or being at Ross for that matter, is that everyone has their own study strategy. Do not listen to anyone else as you have taken four exams already this semester, and too many more at Ross than you can count. YOU know how to study, you know what is right for you.

With this semester coming to a close, and with our Sports Med Club ending all of our events, it is a great time to reflect on why I am here. This semester was tough, it was mentally tough, but I think I have gone to the gym the most since being here. It is all about balance, as you can feel like you are suffocating with the material. I have gotten many emails and instagram messages (@d1todr), and I just wanted to shed some light on why Ross is a great fit for me and for the many readers that I am so lucky to have reading my blog posts. We are almost at the 20,000 view mark on the blog, which is unbelievable.

The most frequent question I get asked is: Is Ross offering you a great education? Is it worth it?

My answer time and time again has been a resounding: "Yes.", but let me elaborate for a second. Ross is hard. Medical school is hard, no matter the location. It doesn't matter if you are in your home state, home province, home country, no matter where you are studying medicine, it is a grueling four years. The first two years (for us) are on the island of Dominica, and then the next two years are in the U.S for clinical rotations. I have made the decision to stay in the U.S after medical school to obtain my residency, and then who knows where I'll move next. That is a complete other blog post! The medical school curriculum is tailored toward the USMLE Board exams, which are taken by every U.S medical student, and once again-no matter the location of your school. I will take the exact same board exams as Harvard medical school graduates, so my education needs to be upheld to the highest standards to do well on these exams. My first of these board qualification exams is in October of this year (which I am already freaking out about). Ross has to make sure they are teaching us pertinent information towards those exams, and that is why the rigors of medical school foundations is tough. 

Before I left for school, a handyman was working on the house that we were house-sitting and I told him I was off to medical school, and he said without hesitation: "you aren't goin' to those places down there like Grenada are ya?". In my head I knew St. George University was on Grenada and 3 times the price of Ross, so...no, I was not going to Grenada, and 2) why the hell does it matter? (excuse my language). It is people like that that really grind my gears because they have no idea what going overseas entails. If I had to choose a physician it would encompass someone who didn't take "no" for an answer, someone who was willing to drop everything to pursue something they have always wanted, and someone who was willing to study medicine away from family, friends, and who would miss out on all life events like birthdays and weddings (sorry Ash xoxo) because they are inside a classroom grinding it out. THAT is who I want as my physician, and THAT is who I want sitting across from me when I need help in the doctors office. It is all about perspective, and to be honest, Ross has made me tougher than ever before, and I will become a great physician because of it.

On that note, since I am a little heated, I will start on pile #1 of my many piles! Thank you all for listening to me rant at times, and for allowing me a voice on how this opportunity to study medicine is so so worth it.

Bye for now,

-E xo

Near the End of the Beginning

Friday, March 18, 2016

Near the End of the Beginning

Hello followers! I can't believe it is already in the middle of March, time is literally flying down here. I have lots to update you on, as it has been a couple weeks since I have last written. We only have two more exams to go and a practical exam and then I am done 3rd semester! I remember just starting MERP in Dec 2014, wow...

It is 9am on a beautiful Friday morning, with about six hours of lecture waiting before me. I REALLY do not want to start lecture today for some reason, so I thought: "Let's do a blog post!" So much better than learning about GI problems, especially diarrhea, which has been the topic of many lectures this past week. Who knew you could have so many varieties!

We had a really big exam this past Monday, and it was definitely the most material that I had to study to date. It was the "Heme & Lymph" module, which was filled with many blood disorders, tons of pathology, and the biochemistry behind it as well. The whole time throughout the block, I kept thinking how I am never going to get through this much material, it is just WAY too much. The exam definitely proved me wrong on Monday, it was my best score on the island thus far, I never share my grades with anyone, but I got a 92%, which puts me at a rank of 6 out of 199 students. It really opened my eyes to never doubt yourself. I definitely did these past four weeks, but you just have to put your head down, grind it out, but still make sure you are eating and sleeping right! I have answered SO many instagram messages this past week, and even emails! So thank you all who have confided in me to help them along your journey. I find that instagram is the best way to get a hold of me, so if you follow me at @d1todr I can answer all of your questions within 24 hours :)

This semester has honestly been my favourite so far, and many previous students might disagree with me on that one. It is A LOT of information, more than you can imagine, but at the same time, it is definitely doable. You just have to have a plan. You have to wake up every morning and follow that plan through. Day in and day out. No excuses. Med school is literally your full time job! I know at times it can be tough as a lot of your family and friends get to go out and enjoy themselves, and celebrate St. Patty's day with cool green drinks and tons of green attire, while you are inside studying until about 11 pm or midnight, but how amazing will it be to throw a badass St. Patty's party when you are an M.D?! I always keep wishing for my time on the island to be done. I am always wishing for time to hurry up and just "getting these years over with so I can be a doctor already". I have learned that time passes so quickly already, and that wishing it all away will only make myself regret such a thought years down the road. The island is where you learn your medical foundation, high yield information for a medical career, and getting us set up for clinicals back in the U.S. It is a time to really hone your study skills, be familiar with taking a great history of a patient, and enjoy your last bit of the Caribbean for a really long time. I have realized that even though I miss home (a lot) and my family and friends (a lot), I am learning so much here to ever let myself wish for something different.

This past Wednesday some of us has community clinic where I actually got to interview someone in their own home. It was such a neat experience to sit down and interview my very first patient, and even write his vitals in his personal medical book. With no one hovering over our shoulder, or stopping us mid sentence to correct us, it was all on us to conduct the full history and physical exam. To be honest, I was nervous, but the patient was so amazing and cute (I LOVE geriatrics), that he made me feel at ease as soon as we arrived. His little granddaughter that was about 3 years old kept pointing to my stethoscope as I was interviewing and really wanted to sit with me on the chair, and so I pulled her up on my lap and put my stethoscope around her neck and you should have seen her face! The grandmother and even nurse were taking pictures the whole time I was interviewing, it was the cutest thing as she kept trying to listen to my heart! Adorable. These are memories that I will keep forever from my time in Dominica.

I wanted to take a quick second to say we have well surpassed the 18,000 views on the blog, which is CRAZY! Thank you so much for coming along for the ride with my medical school journey, it really has been a roller-coaster of emotions! I am happy I have such an amazing support group and avid readers of my blog posts, so thank you.

Okay, okay, I better start these lectures, it is going to be a longgggggg Friday.

Yes, You CAN Do It.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Yes, You CAN Do It.

Hey everyone! I know...you are probably thinking: "What?! Two posts in one month?" That is right my friends, I actually have time to do another post! This past week in Semester 3X we have had some time "off" from lectures, and the reason I say "off" is that we are all still studying (somewhat). This is the week that Semester 03 (which is curriculum) is learning renal physiology from Semester 2. The curriculum track is based on five semesters, so they learn material at different times than 3X. While they are learning renal physiology, 3X has some time to catch up on our 130 drugs that are being tested on our next exam. 130! Yikes! Wish me luck :)

This past week I have gotten a lot accomplished. I have finished my Service Learning Activity, which is a requirement for all students to finish before they can leave the island. The due date is in your last semester in the 10th week of classes, but they say to get it done as soon as you can. It adds 5% to your current semester you complete it in, so with 3rd semester being quite tough, I have decided to complete it this weekend. Our RUSM Sports Medicine Club organized a trip to Grange Nursing Home, which is about 15 minutes from campus. There were eight residents that we got to do functional exercises with, and believe me, it was much needed. It broke my heart to see that they didn't have any shoes, that their shirts were dirty, and that they bathed in cold water, as the home does not own a hot water heater. One resident was 104 years old, and she is a feisty little thing. I heard that Dominica was one of the few countries that have the most people over 100, I definitely believe it. One of our members had an amazing idea to use balloons as a means of getting the residents to use their arms and legs. Such a great idea! We were able to facilitate many exercises with having them try and catch the balloon, and using their legs and feet to kick it as well. We will definitely be going to back to visit and as a donation our club will be giving items like gloves, soaps, bed pads, etc to the nurses that desperately need them.

I also applied to Ross University's Scholarship this past weekend, where I had to write an essay. 16 scholarships of 3,000 are handed out to students under DeVry's Education umbrella. This includes many schools in the Caribbean and the U.S. I will keep you guys updated if I receive and award! *fingers crossed*. That being said, Ross University School of Medicine's facebook page also re-shared two of my instagram posts. I would like to quickly say thank you to Ross and "Hello!" to all of our new followers and people on instagram; writing this blog has truly given me an avenue to talk to so many amazing people. I absolutely love the emails, comments, and likes, because it lets me know that you guys care and that you are venturing off to medical school and confide in me for help. So, thank you.

I also got to attend a Canadian seminar where we talked with recent on-island students who have written their Step 1 and are now finishing up IMF, which is the next stage after the island. A quick 6 week introduction to hone our clinical skills before venturing off into the hospitals. I am grateful that Ross does this, as it will set you up nicely for core rotations that are completed over 42 weeks. We talked a lot about Step studying, Comp (the cumulative final you write before leaving the island), NBME final exams (which you have at the end of 3rd and 4th semester-yay), and that it is possible to do well. I am not sure if I was tired from studying from our last mini, or that I am lost with these couple days off that I over-think and do not know what to do with myself, but I got in such a weird mood. These past two nights I have gone to bed worrying "can I do this", "can I do well on the step 1", and for those that follow my blog posts and instagram pictures you are probably saying: "yes, Emma, you have gotten Dean's List the past two semesters, you have created a brand new club on campus, and you have maintained a high average". But to be honest, that is such a great accomplishment and I am happy, but it is how well you do on Step 1 that matters for residency. Stephen has been great in being supportive and letting me be in my own bubble at times, because it is scary. You can do all this work for two years and then be stuck. I do not want that.

Then I got to thinking..."Emma...C'mon" 
Then I answered out loud: "What?"
My inner voice: "You do not push yourself every day, every night, every weekend, to not pass. You do not move to an island away from family and friends and then have nothing to show for it. You just don't. You have it in you to do well, and you have proved that time and time again."
Me: *sigh* "Ok"
Inner voice: "So stop being grumpy, stop over-thinking, and keep doing what you are doing."

Ok, yes I do talk to myself sometimes, ok? haha. I just had to clear my head, go to bed early, and wake up and remember why I am here. It is hard. No doubt aboot it (in a hard Canadian accent). Medical school is hard, but it is so worth it. The struggle is worth it and your time is worth it. Yes, you CAN do it.

Off to annotate my First Aid Step 1 book, no point in worrying about that exam, might as well try and crush it!

Happy Wednesday everyone!

Bye for now,

-E xo

[What Feels Like] The End of an Era

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

[What Feels Like] The End of an Era

Hey everyone! It is 8am in the morning a day after my final exam, and of course my body would not let me sleep in. I am so excited to announce that I have made the Dean's List for a second semester in a row! If you would have told me that a couple years ago, I would have thought you were crazy, but I am happy that my hard work has paid off. This blog post is going to be structured a bit differently, as I will be listing the top five things that I have learned in my first year of medical school. I have read numerous lists like these before I attended Ross, but I felt they were more "fluff", like: "studying...and then more studying..and then study again"...well of course..it is medical school! These are genuinely the five things that I have learned while being eight months away from home and I hope the newcomers that are coming in for the January intake, current students, and past students will take something away from it!

Drum rolllllllll pplleeeaassseeeeee <----I swear I am still sleep deprived.

Number 1) 

Everyone has their own opinion. What I mean by this is that there are students here of all semesters, 1 through 5 (if you chose the curriculum based track, you will have an extra semester) on this tiny island and a lot of the time opinions roll around of what semester is the "easiest". Semester 2, for me, was not fun. I studied a lot...about 16 hours a day, and I still felt like I was behind. I had a different mentality going into this semester as I was told repeatedly: "oh second was THE BEST." "I loved it", "it was definitely the easiest", and with that mindset going in, the material quickly caught me off guard. Stay true to your study habits, stay true to yourself and take everyone's opinion with a grain of salt.

Number 2)

Having a regiment every day is KEY. I got off track a lot with my workouts, eating, and sleeping near the end of the semester. Having something set in stone will not only facilitate a productive day, but it will make your thinking process about what you need to get done that day so much easier. I promised myself that I will be going to the gym every morning in third semester, and I will make sure to go to yoga twice a week. You have the time, and when you are six hours into material that is just awful, you have to tell yourself that you can take that break, as you will feel so much better for it.

Number 3)

Do not study long. Study smart. I know I may sound hypocritical here as I just mentioned previously that I study 16 hours a day, and you may be thinking: "ummmm Em..that is long...is that smart though?" My answer to everyone reading this is that everyone is different. I, personally, prefer studying alone, at my desk, inside, blinds shut, with a flashlight..ok ok I am kidding but I do like studying alone and not on campus. I just see way too many students staying up until 4am to get through the material...that is silly. I wake up at 7am, and I am in bed by 10pm, sometimes 11pm. Yes, they are long days, but I still get my 8 hours of sleep. Studying smart is where you take breaks, EAT, sleep, and making sure you do not burn out..which I was at the end of first semester and I feel much better today, which is the day after my four and a half hour final.

Number 4) 

Family is your support network. For those that have been away a lot for undergraduate studies like me, have become accustom to the long nights away from family and friends, missing birthdays, weddings, get-togethers, the whole shebang. Being away and being in medical school is a whole new ballgame. My undergraduate degree and playing basketball at the collegiate level was tough, don't get me wrong, but the shear volume of work that medical school entails just sucks the life out of you. I do not want to scare anyone reading this or make my family and friends worry, but it mentally takes a toll on you. It is mentally draining more than it is physical, but that is where you have to take energy from the people around you. You surround yourself with positive people, study in groups if that is your style of learning, but most of all...remind yourself of why you are here. That always seems to bring a burst of energy my way.

Last but certainly not least, Number 5)

Do not be afraid to be happy. This is something that I finally  had to let go of with being here at school. I was always "the pleaser", making sure I wouldn't make anyone angry, making sure they are having a good time, not wanting to disappoint my coaches, family, or friends. I finally had to let some of my friends go in my "already thought" tight circle, when I knew they were just bringing me down. I finally have the courage to stand up for my happiness and follow something that I have always wanted to endure, but admittedly was a bit scared. I always held my feelings back when I was happy, or sad, and life is way too short to ever hold those emotions in. In college, when I was benched for stating my opinion, or reprimanded because I didn't agree with what was happening with one of our coaches and players...stuff that I should have spoken up about, but at the the time was too scared of losing my scholarship. Looking back now, I had one of the top GPAs as a student-athlete, I never did drugs or have academic probation, there was no way they could get rid of me, and if you gave me ten minutes to go back and say all what I would like to say....well...let's just say they probably would have kicked me off haha. My point in this last segment is to let you guys know that my life in no way, shape, or form is perfect. My facebook may look like it is, or my instagram, but everyone fights their own mental battle sometimes. You have to let the things that bother you go. I am still working on mine, but I feel 100% better knowing that I am in a better place than any coach or player that did me wrong. Waking up and feeling happy is OKAY, and I am embracing that as the times before I remember myself feeling guilty. I remember when I was about 14 or 15 helping out with the Queen's University Basketball camp for kids one summer, and one of the other coaches, a female, about thirty asked me what I wanted to do when I finished college. 

I said: "I think I want to be a doctor". 
I remember her response so clearly: "ohhhhh people are going to hate you." 
In my taken back response I asked: "well..why?"
She said: "Well you are tall, athletic, pretty, AND you want to be a doctor..that has hate written all over it". 

I remember just sitting there thinking: 

*then let them hate*

Aright folks, I am off to run some errands this morning and then Stephen and I are off on Sunday morning to Canada!! We are going to freeze, but I can not wait to be home.

Ps. We are almost at 15,000 views on the blog. All I can say is thank you.

Bye for now,

-E xo

The [Almost] End to First Year

Friday, November 13, 2015

The [Almost] End to First Year

Hello everyone! I hope you all are having a lovely Friday afternoon, and since I just finished my Neurology block this morning, I thought I would sit down and write a quick blog post!

To put it bluntly: Neuro was tough.

To put it more bluntly: WHOA.

I just finished my exam this morning and I am happy that the scores were literally posted fifteen minutes ago and now I can enjoy my weekend! I really would like to be a Neuroscience TA for next semester and with my current grade on the practical and the mini..I am definitely in the running! The great thing about having a block end on a Friday, is that there is no new material to study until Monday. That has never happened here at Ross before for our class so this weekend is planned with some amazing hikes, catamaran rides, swimming and just chilling. A "block" means a section of material. Our first block was Respiratory/Cardiovascular physiology, our next block was GI/Renal physiology, and our third block was Neuro. We will finish 2nd semester with Endocrine/Reproductive physiology and this is where things get hectic. We have our final histology practical, Mini 4 exam, Final exam, and our final practical exam all in on week...and it is going to get Crazy. With. Emotions. (sorry in advance Steve)

Our 2nd semester practical is nerve-wracking because if we fail it ....then we fail the entire semester and have to repeat, even if our "in classroom" grades are completely fine. There are three stations and they are all timed. A total of only 25 minutes, but a lot could go wrong within those 25 minutes. We get a random selection of patients with cold and cough, headache, muscle plain, etc and we have to make sure we know what to do in those situations, answer questions from our proctor, perform the appropriate physical exam skills, and summarize our findings in the end. All within eight minutes. YUP. Eight (8).

I can't believe that my first year of medical school is coming to a close. The time has literally escaped me. I remember starting the Merp program way back in December of last year thinking: "okay..this is it! This is how my medical school journey is beginning!" It was a really cool feeling to imagine Dominica, what it's like, how are classes are run, how are the people, the professors, the education. Even to this day, Ross has blown me away. I am very happy in my decision to come here, and the fact that I do not really want to return to practice in Canada (wayyy too many healthcare cuts in Ontario), that the Step 1 geared education for the U.S has become very beneficial. I am learning more than I have ever imagined, with some fun along the way as well. THAT is key.

My last blog post sparked some personal sentiments of my followers and I absolutely love when that happens. I have had a couple emails that have said "thank you" or "that is exactly what I have been thinking, thank you so much!" to "whoa..deep Em...real deep". Every comment has made me so happy and I just want to say that I do this blog because of everyone that reads along with me. Sure, I can write for myself, but I could write in my journal...(if I had one). Writing out loud to a vast audience gives me a certain type of calmness and it makes me feel good after a long week in medical school. I feel connected to all of you, even if you have read my blog once and moved on, or people who have stayed from the beginning, all of you mean a lot to me. It is nice knowing that people from afar are on this journey with me, and I will say it again as I have said it 204964255642 before...thank you.

This is a "quicker" post than usual and maybe not as "deep", but know that all of those deep emotions are in there, and I am just too excited to have a WEEKEND OFF. WHAT?! Is this real life?!

Stephen and I are off to dinner at 5:30pm at a beautiful restaurant called "Sisters", I thought it was fitting at I will be seeing my sisters and my family in a little more than a month!

Bye for now,

-E xo

Semester 2 and all it's Glory

Thursday, October 22, 2015

Semester 2 and all it's Glory

My followers! I hope you are all still there! It has been almost exactly one month since I have written and boy how that month has flown.

So. Semester 2. Typically termed "the easier semester" out of the four on the island, but honestly...I don't think any semester is easy in med school. Yes, in semester 2 you have "more time" as you do not have that anatomy lab session in the afternoons, but I have studied more this semester than I have last semester by far, as physiology does not come naturally to me. I have to make sure I understand it conceptually before I can start applying my knowledge to questions, and that seems to take awhile. We have had two exams so far and what is different about this semester is that we actually have a clinical practical exam at the end of the semester. Yikes! This is where we get tested on our physical exam skills and simulation techniques, wish me luck! I will make sure to blog about it so don't worry.

I just wanted to say thank you to all of you for being patient with me. I know it has been four weeks since I have last written, and to be honest, this is the first time I am sitting in front of my computer where I do not have mediasite up, my lecture notes, google images, or anything else related to school. It sure has been a whirlwind. This semester has been tough, but one that I am just getting excited for as today we start our neurology block. It is about four weeks of material and really interesting to me, so let's hope it's smooth sailing from here!

A lot has happened since I last wrote, like my tablet completely dying (yay), to having one of my good friends in third semester lend me his old one (so nice), to being emailed about attending the Dean's List Honor Roll Ceremony on November 6th, to losing both my doubles tennis matches in intramurals (ok..one we had to forfeit because I pulled my back), and that tutoring is going amazing. I actually love being a tutor, and I make sure I put enough effort into it where it does not interfere with my schedule. Domi (our little pup) is doing awesome, and she officially gets spayed tomorrow and I am REALLY not looking forward to it. She gets picked up tomorrow, driven on the back on a truck in a tiny cage, has the surgery, stays over night and is returned to us Sat morning. Not looking forward to it, but it is better than having her in heat down here as there are a lot of stray male dogs...that would not be a good situation. Now that I have updated you a little bit, let me get real for a second:

Medical school is hard. A different kind of hard though. I think it is more the fear of not doing well, failing, messing up an exam, or the fear that you are not supposed to be here. I fought internally with the last one for the past couple weeks, and to be honest, I am happy I did. I think if we go through the motions throughout the day and we don't even look up from our pages of life that life will literally pass us by. I had a fear that I am doing all this intense work and that life will not work out for me. You hear of horror stories of students doing well at Ross and then not passing Step 1...the board exam of hell. To be honest, I really psyched myself out. I thought..."Omg..I could be doing all this work and after two years I would have accumulated all this debt and not even be close in being a physician." I believed the stories and I got scared. But then I realized...there are numerous physicians in this world that were always scared of something throughout their education. Then I realized further that almost every person in their lifetime has been scared of something, and that this is okay. It is okay because if it didn't mean a lot to you...then you wouldn't care as much, and I understand that wholeheartedly now. I know that if I didn't care about my exam yesterday or passing Step 1 that I am here for the wrong reasons. If I didn't care in making that Dean's List or being a tutor or getting a high pass on exams, that I am striving to JUST get by...and trust me...I never want to be a student that just gets by. Life is not about going through the motions, it is making sure you are scared a little bit. Waking up and doing something that challenges you, talking to a friend that you should have two weeks ago but are held back by trepidation, knowing you are in a profession that you are HAPPY with, in which sometimes you may not feel that you are. IT IS OKAY. Being scared let's you know that you are doing something that may not necessarily be easy, and one that someone will look at you and be like "wow, you did that?"...that is overcoming fear..and that is awesome.

Alright guys, thanks so much for reading and allowing me to vent/getting all philosophical on you. I just felt that I needed to express how I feel throughout different parts of my medical school journey, as it is all not high passes and swimming in the ocean, it is a grind, but one that is definitely worth it.

Off to learn about neuroscience!

Bye for now,

-E xo

Why Canadian Medical Schools Suck

Monday, September 21, 2015

Why Canadian Medical Schools Suck

I know what you're thinking: here goes another rant about how a Caribbean student didn't get into medical school back home in Canada, but actually...it is quite the opposite.


Growing up in Canada, for me, was the best gift that my parents could have ever given me. My three sisters and I not only grew up on a farm, but we were surrounded with 3,000 acres of farmland to roam and completely immerse ourselves in. My parents still reside on our farm, and going home to visit is always a breath of fresh air...literally and figuratively. Canada is a pretty amazing country, and no, not because of our "free" healthcare, that we are allies with every country, we know when not to get involved, and we know when to act. Canada is everyone's best friend that they have had for several years, and we don't want to make anyone angry...but those who tend to get the short end of the stick are unfortunately....healthcare providers.


Canada has officially fourteen medical schools, and for a population of 35 million, fourteen schools is definitely not enough to compensate for the people/physician ratio. Compare that to our fellow neighbour, the Good Ol' US of A, which has not only Allopathic (M.D degree) schools, but Osteopathic (D.O degree) schools as well. Hundreds of schools established, and the biggest kicker is that they are constantly opening new ones. According the AAMC, quoted on kaptest.com "in the next two years, we can expect seven new medical schools to open in the United States in Washington, Alabama, Indiana, North Carolina, Mississippi, and Oregon." SEVEN new medical schools, and what is sad about this is that Canada has not opened a medical school since Northern Ontario School of Medicine in 2005, ten years ago almost to date. According a paper written by Strassel et al.(2009) in the Academic Medicine Journal titled Canada's New Medical School: The Northern Ontario School of Medicine: Social Accountability Through Distributed Community Engaged Learning, a long winded title to mention in their introduction that "This paper outlines the development and implementation of NOSM, Canada's first new medical school in more than 30 years." How sad is that? Not only that, but according to the same paper: "[NOSM] seeks to recruit students into its MD program who come from Northern Ontario or from similar northern, rural, remote, Aboriginal, Francophone backgrounds." So you are probably thinking.."great!...I might have a chance at this!" I am from a small farm town in Ontario, with no more than 300 people in my area, I have dealt with the rural aspect all my life (an hour and a half bus ride EACH way to school), I understand and appreciate rural physicians more than ever, as I have had the privilege interacting with many of them, I graduated with a 3.5 GPA from a top ranked U.S school in New York, played NCAA Division 1 basketball fifty hours a week and graduated with distinction as I simultaneously obtained my B.Sc in Biology degree. I could go on about my medical placement volunteering in Vietnam at an orthopedic hospital, and how I have numerous extracurricular activities to my name...but the sad part is...NOSM does not care. Canada has opened up a medical school for the first time in 30 years (which was 10 years ago) to students who need to be rural, aboriginal, and/or francophone, yet Canada persistently strives in being "diverse". Oh Canada eh?


McGill School of Medicine just recently was put on probation, according to The Globe and Mail article, "The flaws include concerns over students' learning experience and the quality of instruction in women's health". Furthermore, in the same article "In one of the more significant findings, the assessors said the school failed to ensure all students had the same experiences regardless of which hospital or clinic they were training in." It doesn't stop there, "McGill is not the first Canadian medical faculty to be targeted by accreditation bodies. The University of Saskatchewan’s medical school has been on probation more than once, and Dalhousie University’s medical school was put on probation in 2009." Another recent uproar was an event that involved a professor at Queen's University in the Kinesiology and Health Studies Department, Melody Torcolacci, who was caught teaching anti-vaccine lectures over several years to students (The National Post). She has been since removed from the position, but it was never discovered until a student brought this to the attention of other faculty members, and which brought swift action to take place. Oddly enough, my father, who attended Queen's University for undergrad, mentioned she actually coached him in shot put, let's be thankful that her anti-vaccine ways did not influence my parents' decision for my three sisters and I.

I am not writing this article to point out all that is wrong with Canadian med schools, I am bringing it up because things have to start changing. Just recently, Ontario announced that is will cut fifty residency spots over the next two years according to an article from CBC News: "Health Minister Eric Hoskins is defending the Ontario government's decision to eliminate 50 medical residency positions when hundreds of thousands of people don't have a family doctor" (Aug 2015). This announcement literally came out two weeks after a statistic outline was addressed that more than 800,000 Ontario people do not have a primary care physician. How is this even okay? Why are we cutting residency positions when there is a massive need for physicians in Ontario? Oh wait…here it is: "Ontario has nearly doubled the number of first-year medical residency spots since 2004 to about 1,200 a year, and is now scaling back to make better use of scarce health care dollars, said Hoskins." We have "scarce" health care dollars? Where is it all going? We only have FOURTEEN medical schools across the country, and only SIX in Ontario, but we have limited funding so we have to cut back? The U.S is opening medical schools left and right, but we can't seem to manage 1/100 of healthcare costs that they have. People always ask: "Oh where are you attending medical school? U of T? McMaster?" And the sad part is, many qualified, and even over qualified Canadians are heading abroad, as the acceptance rate for medical schools across Canada is  staggering 4%. 4% of Canadians who apply to get into Canadian medical schools, but we have such a massive shortage of healthcare providers. This statistic, among others, does not make sense. The numbers get worse, according to Oxford Seminars, that 5,000 applicants apply to McMaster School of Medicine every year, do you want to know how many get in? 200. NOSM? More than 3,000 apply...how many they take in? 64. 64 people in one medical school class is complete nonsense, especially as Canada pleads rural areas need the most help; then enroll more rural applicants! C'mon Canada! Queens? More than 4,000 apply..and they take 99 students. When Queen's officially opened in 1854, do you want to know how many students they enrolled back then? 23. So only 76 more people have been allowed me be admitted since 1854...that is sad. I also found out last year when I was applying that they have designated spots for incoming Asian international students, honestly, that is what the undergraduate admissions coordinator said verbatim when I called to inquire about the stats of Queen's, which I found out along the way that Queen's does not like giving numbers. It is disappointing to know know that Canada does not want to change when our country is ever changing and the demand is more than ever. The amount of students that want to be physicians, and the need for such physicians is such a linear relationship, but Canada tries to compensate with our amazing benefits along with our use of ludicrous taxpayer money. We will always have a saturation of students leaving this beautiful country of ours to attend medical school at more than 300% of tuition of that of our Canadian med student counterparts, leave our family and friends for quite a long duration, and to only be given limited spots to return to our residing homeland because there isn't enough spots to be accepted in the first place.

All in all, the education that I am receiving at Ross is above par and I am happy that I did not take "no" as an answer. I sucked it up, did not give up on myself, and found an alternate route that will allow me to be the best physician that I can be. We are already in second semester, and tomorrow I get to interview a patient in front of eight other people. Where at the end of the interview we all discuss and students give constructive criticism of what I could improve on, and what I did well. We are implementing a systems-based practice where we work together in the healthcare field, and I only wish Canada would listen. Then you get the med school forums and blogs that bash any International Medical School Graduate (IMGs) that are studying outside of Canada, this one was just lovely from Healthydebate.ca "I know several individuals so under qualified they could not even secure an interview at a Canadian medical school, then essentially purchased MDs from the Caribbean, Ireland etc. These people now feel it is their “right” to practice in Canada. I would rather an IMG who earned their degree, than a Canadian doctor who bought theirs overseas." So much for a "healthy debate" forum eh? Sadly, this was from a Canadian medical student, and if they are so arrogant and ignorant about their prestigious degree than I am surprised there were so many spelling errors in his paragraph that my OCD took over and I had to correct before re-posting it here. It is sad to know that our fellow Canadian medical students have such a stereotypical, preconceived view of the offshore medical route, but sadly...I am not surprised. So for every 99 people that get into Queen's, are the remaining 3,901 students rejects or "not-fit" to be a physician in Canada? Of course not. Those that settle and take "no" for an answer are. I would want to walk into an office of a physician, whatever the location their degree, and know they worked their butt off to get where they are today. To know that they might not have gotten into their first, second, third or even their Canadian choice for med school, but let that "no" fuel their determination to excel even more. THAT is who I would want as my physician. THAT is what determines excellency.

I am off to study airflow resistance of the lung, and as I do...I remember why I am here. I am here because I am supposed to be. Canada lost out on a potential great physician, and with all the laws and cut backs that are happening in Ontario, my desire to return is slowly fading with time. I would rather practice in a country that needs and understands the value of a hard-working Caribbean medical student, rather than making them jump through hoops. To return to a country that is in desperate need of the help, but just can't come to terms with making a change for the good of the people, is not appealing to any professional degree holder, and in the end, I am saddened to be a Canadian citizen.

Rant over.

Bye for now,

 

-E

References:

Branswell, Helen. "Queen’s University Professor under Fire for Anti-vaccine Teachings Granted Leave from Course. "Http://news.nationalpost.com/news/canada/queens.  National Post, 9 Feb. 2015. Web. 21 Sept. 2015.

"Canadian Medical School Profiles." Oxford Seminars.ca. Oxford Seminars. Web. 21 Sept. 2015.

Hause, Emily. "How Many People Get Into Medical School?"Http://www.kaptest.com/. Kaplan, 4 Sept. 2014. Web. 21 Sept. 2015.

"Ontario Cuts 50 Medical Residency Places, Critics Warn of Doctor Shortage." Www.cbc.ca/news. The Canadian Press, 10 Aug. 2015. Web. 21 Sept. 2015.

Peritz, Ingrid. "McGill University Takes Hit to Prestige as Medical School Put on Probation."Http://www.theglobeandmail.com/news/national/education/mcgill. The Globe and Mail, 18 June 2015. Web. 21 Sept. 2015.

Strasser, Roger, William McCready, and Marie Matte. "Canada’s New Medical School: The Northern Ontario School of Medicine: Social Accountability Through Distributed Community Engaged Learning."Academic Medicine 84.10 (2009): 6.Http://nosm.ca/uploadedFiles/About_Us. Web. 21 Sept. 2015.

Bonjour Semester Deux!

Sunday, September 6, 2015

Bonjour Semester Deux!

Hey everyone! We made it safe back to Dominica, it was an adventure, but we are here! *whew*

As I sit here in our new apartment looking over the ocean, with our cute little puppy, Domi, at my feet, I can't help but smile and think to myself how lucky we really are. Tropical Storm Erika hit Dominica hard, with over thirty deceased and about fifty missing, it is so hard to see a country that is struggling. It is crazy to believe that we are starting class Monday morning with no delay in schedule, and that even though the entire country lost power, water, and internet about five days ago, we are all here to continue medical school with everything up and running.

These past two weeks have been a whirlwind. They went wayyyy too fast. My friend Viive visited us from Estonia (within Europe..don't worry...before I met her I didn't know it existed either ;)), and we spent our time in Barbados and then we were stuck in Guadaloupe for about four days waiting to hear from Ross. Unfortunately, Viive couldn't make it to Dominica with us, as they had ferries for students first, and then family and visitors second. It wasn't a problem of her visiting Dominica, it was the fact that she may not be able to get out in time for her flight back to Europe. We said our goodbyes about five days early, and that was pretty hard as we have that friendship that's like: "Alright..well..see ya in three years maybe??" So that is always not a fun goodbye.

The trip back to Dominica was not a fun one. Anyone who knows me knows that I get SO sick on ferries. We waited in line in the heat for about an hour and thankfully Ross paid for our tickets. We boarded the packed ferry and went straight to Portsmouth, as the roads from Roseau (the original ferry destination stop) to Portsmouth are not accessible due to the storm. In the end, we are here. We are safe. We FINALLY have power, water, and internet at our apartment and fresh groceries in the fridge...so bring on Semester two! The reason that some of the title of this post is in the french is that fact that Guadaloupe is a french speaking country, and if you don't know french..look out...they do not like you haha Stephen and I tried to manage our way through, and didn't do too shabby...but if Mr. Russel, my former Grade 12 french teacher, could hear me now..he would be so disappointed.

While unpacking our stuff and checking my Ross email, I got an awesome opportunity from Ross asking me to be a tutor for the incoming class. I was so excited, as it showed that my hard work paid off and was noticed by the university. I can't wait to help out some firsties while simultaneously helping myself stay on top of the material for the Step 1 exam. <-- already freaking out about this exam even though it is a year away. I also got another email from one of the amazing professors at MERP, Dr. Lindner, who asked me to be a representative from RUSM to prospective MERP students, as they do webinars for students to allow them to speak to us and ask questions. There is one representative chosen from AUC (another Caribbean medical school) and RUSM, so I am very happy to stay a part of the MERP program and community! Thank you Dr. Lindner for thinking of me. Furthermore, I have gotten some amazing emails from my blog that literally made me tear up. So many nice things were said not only about the blog, but me personally, so for that I thank you. I also have many instagram followers that ask numerous questions and follow my journey throughout Ross through my pictures (@d1todr). One follower in particular is a current MERP student and he suggested that I do a video for his MERP class and talk about my time on the island thus far; and I thought this was a great idea. One email later in to Dr. Lindner, I am recording myself tonight and sending the video to Florida and Canada so both classes can see my beautiful face haha it looks rough right now due to traveling, so sorry in advance Merpers.

I love being a part of such a great community of not only prospective Ross students, Caribbean med students, current students, but MERP students as well, I have connections with all of you and I am forever grateful. To the 1st semesters that saw me in IGA here in Dominica yesterday and follow my blog and took the time to say hello and introduce yourselves, you honestly make me happy! Thank you so much. Thank you for reading and please do not hesitate to ask me questions! 

Off to walk our little princess, Domi, and give her a nice bath after. This is going to be a busy semester, but I am ready. Cardio Physiology here I come!

Bye for now,

-E xo

The Calm. The Storm. The Aftermath.

Wednesday, August 19, 2015

The Calm. The Storm. The Aftermath.

Helloooooooooo my lovely readers! I AM alive! I promise! I finally have the mental capacity to sit in front of my computer and write. I am officially DONE my first semester of medical school, and boy, was it tough. I am officially a 2nd semester Ross student and it feels quite nice to say that.

The last time I have written I think I just finished Mini 4? Or maybe it was Mini 3, but either way, it has been a long time since I have written and the past 5 weeks have been crazy. Our last week of the semester, we literally had four exams in seven days. It was a lot to take in, but I made sure to pace myself through that high stress level time.

So where do I start? Do I talk about the "hell week" or the death that was Mini 4? Or do I talk about saving a puppy on the side of the road that was bound to have a short life close to these busy streets? Do I talk about how I am officially a part of the PAWS at Ross Eboard for next semester? Or that I made the Dean's List Honour Roll for this semester?! (I am spelling "honour" the Canadian way...#britishsystem) So much has gone on that I have to think back to my memory so I can tell you all about my crazy last month. Mini 4 was hard. It just is. Thankfully, I have had immunology before with MERP, but if you haven't, you will be studying your buns off even harder. Thankfully, I kept my study strategy consistent, and even though I kind of questioned it a bit at times, it all comes through in the end. I ended up getting a high enough score to keep me in the running in getting a "high pass" for this semester. For 1st semester at Ross, the curriculum is set up where you will get a P or an F. Pass or Fail. You still get numerical grades, but in the end, either you are passing....or you are failing. You can also get an "HP" which means high pass, where you score higher than an 85% for the semester, and thankfully I worked hard until the end to get that HP. If you are wanting to return to Canada, they see EVERY SINGLE GRADE that you have ever gotten at Ross, so just keep that in mind. This is where I had to make a decision for myself. It was Friday night, all of our grades to date are uploaded and I calculated that I had already passed the semester even if I didn't write our 25% cumulative final. I am exhausted, a tad burnt out, ok...a lot burnt out..and I have to decide if I want to work for that distinction. Thankfully, I have Steve here to say to me: "you have worked this hard all semester...would you be happy with anything less?" And knowing me...I know that I would not be happy if I got any lower knowing that I could do it if I just put the effort in. So I cracked open my books on that Friday night...and started studying for my final. It was a long, long haul that weekend, and there were many points where I just had to go lay down for about 20 minute increments, as it felt like my brain was literally melting. Semester 1 is tough....it's so called "the weed out" semester...because that is exactly what it's doing. It is trying to see who is tough enough, not only physically as you have to endure the heat, eat right, sleep right, fuel your body right, but also mentally tough...because the days get very long, very quickly. The final was actually not terrible, very specific but not anything too out of left field. I left feeling confident and that I was ready to be done with this semester already! I'll hopefully qualify to be an Anatomy TA for next semester for all the firsties! (I can say that now because I am now a 2nd!), but it will be great to keep anatomy fresh for Step 1 studying.

During these intense study days, Steve and I went for a walk and we were greeted by this sweet, sweet little pup. She was starving, had ticks on her, and definitely had fleas. My heart literally sank when I saw her and to be honest, I could not leave her knowing she is out there alone. We live on a very busy road (thankfully moving next semester) and I know that she would either get hit, or die from infection/worms/disease. I am part of this amazing group called PAWS at Ross where we help students who are bringing their pets down to the island with up to date information on shots, flights, etc, but we also try to help the many strays that Dominica is unfortunately known for. It is really hard on me walking by and seeing a stray dog, and knowing me, I am going to try and do something about it. So, the little girl pup that we named Domi is coming with us to our new apartment next semester! Our new apartment does not take dogs and after pleading with our new landlord she is charging us 200 US just to keep her for 2 months...I will work my magic to make sure she stays with us the entire time. I have created a GoFundMe account for her and PAWS at Ross as this club is in much need of help. We have only three Eboard members, while some clubs have more than ten and access to so many resources. We literally have very little funds and have twelve dogs in our care right now that the $ is coming out of our pockets. To paraphrase a conversation that I was having with a very good friend of mine, that it takes a special person to be a part of PAWS at Ross. It is not like the other groups where you get that rush of taking someone's blood pressure, educating them on how to eat right and care for themselves, taking blood or listening to a child's heartbeat. PAWS members have to understand that all of our hard work might go unnoticed, or that we literally pick a puppy off the street and smuggle him into a "no-pet" apartment because that is what is morally right. We see a lot of heartache with animals, and more than you can imagine. The amount of students that just walk by a little puppy and do not do anything astounds me, as we are not here to be only physicians, but here to make a difference in the world. So as that is said, here is what I am proposing as my readers who have been with me through thick and thin..that if you donate to help Steve and I and the amazing people who are a part of PAWS..I will write you PERSONALLY about my "tricks of the trade" with passing first semester without even having to write the final. I will answer ANY questions you may have about anything and everything and I will tell you my study secrets...honestly...they will help you. If we could get to even $1000 raised, that would help us spay and neuter a big chunk of our dogs, and that would mean so much to us! So please, even if it's $5, every bit helps and I will make sure to include lots of pictures of cute little Domi. I will reply as soon as I can and make sure when you donate, put your full name and comment on the blog with your email, and I'll write you guys! Last thing, PLEASE share share share! Sometimes when these campaigns get in the hands of the right people, they take off (or so I only hope). And how amazing would it be to raise enough money so this club does not have to be waiting on paycheck to paycheck to take care of these little guys. That is all I will bug you with...but all I ask is that you take 1 minute of your time to donate, it is really that fast.

Here is the link, just click!: http://www.gofundme.com/kygsy6r8 

Well guys, I can finally enjoy my night knowing that is off my chest now and you know what I have been busy with ! Not only school anymore! haha I am off to a friend's house to hang out and relax with Steve, it has been too long where we can just kick back and relax. Thank you for all that you do, for being in my corner, reading and encouraging me, and above all else...listening to my chaotic thoughts at times. This is where I am meant to be, and I am so happy that you are all along for the ride. #DonateforDomi!

Bye for now,

-E xo

5. Classes. Left.

Wednesday, July 29, 2015

5. Classes. Left.

Yes, people, you read that right. FIVE classes left of my first semester of medical school and it truly has been a whirlwind. Even though we have five classes left...we have about four lectures per day, so roughly twenty new lectures stand between me and the end of an amazing four months. But who am I really kidding? There is no such thing as an "end" when you enter the world of medicine, or any professional avenue that encourages/requires life long learning. I think that is why I was drawn to medicine in the first place, with every new study completed, a new drug produced to help children with seizures, or a new medical discovery, it is the unknown that keeps our species pushing to find those answers, and it really is incredible.

It is a rainy Wednesday evening and I just got up from a much needed nap. I try not to take naps, because the people that know me..a nap to me is someone else's total sleep time haha. It is really easy to get behind here so every hour has to be carefully programmed. Sleep to long? There goes potential study time, but for me today: Sleep>Study. Since there are so few classes left, and going on five weeks of material for this next exam, a bunch of our semester grade comes down to the last and final week of 1st semester. As of yet, we have had: Mini 1: 10%, Mini 2: 12% Mini 3: 13% and Two Anatomy Lab Practicals: 10%. So all students have a total of 45% completed going into what is termed: "Hell week on the island". To be honest, I do not think it will be that bad as long as you budget your time wisely. 55% of our grade is determined in less that seven days, which means you could be doing phenomenal, but then completely blow it in the last week. WHICH IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, just putting it into perspective. Our first hurdle is Mini 4, which is about 190 questions and is a beast of an exam. It is the most information covered at one time for an exam (5 weeks) than we will ever have on the island. Talking to some 4th semesters, they all say that Mini 4 of 1st semester is the hardest exam they have taken to date, because of the shear volume of material. Two days later we have our Histology practical (5%) and the next day we have our last Anatomy Lab Practical-Head and Neck (5%), and two days later, yes, ONLY two days, we have our cumulative final worth 25%. It will be a tough week, but as long as you do well on Mini 4, you are setting yourself up really well for the final, and that is really all I am putting my energy towards. *fingers crossed*

I have been trying to stay on top of material more so this week as my Saturday morning will be filled helping out with US Navy's  "Continuing Promise" mission. The US Navy is doing an incredible thing throughout the Caribbean that help residents get the care they need. They will be traveling on the USNS Comfort Ship and I'll be sure to post of picture of it within this post, as it truly is incredible. There are about 4,500 physicians and nurses aboard who will try and give care to as many patients as possible and Ross University has the privilege to send students to help out throughout the week they are here. I am SO excited to just be in the presence of some of these amazing caregivers and help give back to this beautiful island. Knowing myself, I know that having my Saturday morning and a bit of the afternoon away from studying may cause me to question if I should go, but I just feel that we are enrolled at Ross to become the best version of ourselves, and by me going, it will give me that boost of motivation to get through these next two weeks. I have signed up for physical therapy, internal medicine, and cardiology, so we shall see how it goes!

Overall, I am extremely happy that I am here. I messaged my mom last night: "going on hour number 18, but I wouldn't want to be putting this much effort into anything else." Which is SO true. Why work hard at something for so long when it doesn't even make you happy? I blame part of that on society, but then there has to be something inside of you that is willing to take the leap and make the change if you are doing something that you do not like. Like I have said in one of my posts before, I may not have wanted to be a doctor since I was a little girl, with a sign on my door that says "Dr. Cronk" or have been "following my dream" ever since. I am far from that, it took me awhile to figure out my path in life and you know what? It's OK. Being 26 or 27 (just had a birthday, wooo to being 27!) and not realllyyyy sure if you are in the right field is normal and I think a lot of people look at me and think I have it completely figured out. WRONG. There are some days I question if this is what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, but like I said to my mom last night, I wouldn't want to work this hard at something if I didn't want to do it. There are two types of people in this world. The people who understand what they love and will fight for it, and there are those people that do it just to get by. You can't be in the latter group here. You just can't. You have to wake up everyday and KNOW..I can do this. I am here. I am ready for today. Sure, you can have those moments of doubt, but then you have to listen to that inside voice and know deep down that you are here to practice medicine. You are here to make a difference in this world, as this world is in such desperate need of physicians. You can do this. You got this.

As this novel of a post comes to a close, I did want to mention the amazing and thoughtful comments on my blog and instagram, you all are amazing and help me keep going when the nights get very long. Also, I have gotten a lot of messages recently asking if I could give out my personal email to answer questions about Ross and the island, and although I would LOVE to, I think it would be best if questions were asked on instagram, as most of my pictures talk about Ross and the island itself. Just search @d1todr and you should see that recognizable face pop up:) You can also leave comments on here, which I get a notification by email when a comment is made. I will try and check my emails on a consistent basis!

Off to go over today's lectures, and the fact that it is already 6:45pm, I might be up a tad later tonight. But you what? I am ready for it. 5 lecture days. Final: Aug 17th. Barbados for a week. Semester 2.

I can do this. I got this.

Bye for now,

--E xo

Mini 3 Hurdle

Tuesday, July 7, 2015

Mini 3 Hurdle

First and foremost I would like to say a huge THANK YOU to Ross University for re-sharing my blog on their facebook page last week, it was so nice to log onto instagram and see many new followers and about 1,000 new views on the blog! Second, hello to all the new followers! Welcome, welcome :) I hope this blog gives you some insight not only into Ross, but my life journey as well, it has already been quite eventful. To all my usual followers, whattttupppp.

Well it is the evening of the aftermath that was Mini 3 and whoa. That exam was a marathon. It was only 1 hour and 53 minutes and 84 questions, but I am definitely still feeling the effects. I studied at my kitchen table for three days straight and did not see the light of day, but managed to pull a 92% on this one, so I am pretty happy! I usually don't ever comment on marks (yes, in Canada..we say "marks", not "grades") but I was pretty proud of this one. I studied a lot and pretty intensely, as the material was quite dense and the amount was ridiculous. I have definitely found a trend within med school where the professors give you JUST enough where the shear volume of material is out of your comfort zone. The key to this is to just stay on top of it. I have always heard upper semesters saying: "just study everyday"...well..what does that really mean? What are you actually doing from hour to hour? How do you study? To summarize and to let people know my typical day, I thought I would share what a typical 1st semester mediasiter at Ross University looks like:

6:00am--> Wake up/Breakfast
6:40am-7:40am-->Gym
8:00am-1pm--> mediasite lectures of the day and make study sheets simultaneously
1pm-2pm-->Lunch
2pm-7pm-->Review material taught that day
7pm-8pm--> Dinner
8pm-11pm--> practice questions/finishing up material/if have time: pre-read for tomorrow's lecture
11pm--> TRY to be in bed...usually 12am.

Med school is tough. Actually..it is quite brutal..but it is doable. You have to be able to have self motivation, discipline, motivation, and a dash of tenacity because that is what will get you through those long nights. Ross is awesome, and I am not saying that because I go here and that I didn't get into Canadian med schools (*shakes fist*), but they really set you up for success. All professors want you to succeed and their doors are always open and will get back to you within 24 hours with an email response. I am really impressed with their Clinical Skills Curriculum here, as I have had two patient interactions already, and in Canada, that is not until about your third year at the majority of universities. I performed an abdominal exam on a patient where I touched their stomach to feel any abnormalities (palpate), using my finger and a tapping technique to listen to tympanic and dull sounds (percussion), and listened to normal bowl sounds in all four quadrants of the abdomen using my handy dandy stethoscope (auscultation). Actually, the appropriate order should be 1) Auscultate,  2) Percussion, 3) Palpation and EVERY time in that order. Seeing a live patient has made all this studying worth it, as you can be so involved in your notes that you sometimes forget why you are here. Last week's clinical skills sessions definitely solidified my reasons for being here.

I am happy to have more people on this journey with me, and in a weird way, I can physically feel all of you cheering me on. I love writing and telling you all about my experiences, whether they may be good, bad, or both at the same time. I had a moment today where I couldn't stop smiling. I finished my exam....walked to the mail room on campus, and in the corner of my eye I saw all these kids running around on this huge field...and there was Steve (FYI for the newcomers: Steve: boyfriend who is on the island with me) and he was teaching his health class outside. All these kids ranging from 6-9 years old as happy as can be, and him noticing me after my exam with the biggest smile and wave (I probably looked like death), and having the bright sun shining down on us. It such an awesome moment. Theennnnnnn I went to the beach and ordered a strawberry daiquiri. Life is great.

Well folks, as they always say, work hard play harder...which really means I am watching lectures tonight from our lectures on Friday that were not tested on today's exam. I will play hard when I have that M.D. after my name..until then..it's back to the grind.

Next obstacle ahead: Anatomy practical on Monday and Mini 4 in 5 weeks. BEAST of an exam. Let's do this.

Bye for now,

--E xo

The First Week is Over...I Survived

Monday, December 15, 2014

The First Week is Over...I Survived

It is Monday evening and I literally just woke up from a much needed power nap before I start reviewing today's lecture material, which is on neural tissues and reading histological slides (yay). I have now realized what studying in med school is really like and I could not be more thankful for the program that I am in. I have now realized that my study habits that I have so precisely mastered in my undergraduate degree, does not necessarily transfer over as easily at this level. This is what my typical day looked like last week:

Wake-up: 6:00am
Lecture: 7:30-11:30am
Lunch: 11:30-12:00pm
Academic Success lecture: 12:00-1:00pm
Usually anatomy lecture/Meeting/Reviewing questions: 2:00-3:00pm
Study: 4:00pm-9:00pm
Sleep: 10pm-6:00am

After leaving campus, I take about an hour off and study from 4:00pm-9:00pm reviewing important concepts that I learned that day, and re-writing a bulk of my notes and highlighting terms I am not familiar with. I have realized this past week that it is WAY too time consuming. I did well on my quiz today (we have an individual and group quizzes every Monday, and today we had another anatomy lecture after an intellectually stimulating morning, it was an extremely long and exhausting day..but it is definitely practice for the island in May), but I felt that I "over-studied" if that makes any sense. I learned almost too much of everything, and not each subject really well. I literally memorized entire chapters, where I needed to know only the pathway. This week I have made the decision to re-read and review the textbooks while highlighting important terms, and only then will I write out pathways and diagrams on my white-board. This will save me time and will help me memorize the material in a more "active" studying type way. I will see how it goes!

I am slowly realizing the fact that I am in this for the long haul...four more years and potentially four more years on top of that of residency for my future Physiatry program. The weird part is...I am actually excited about it. We are such complex human beings and learning about how our bodies fight off pathogens without the use of vaccines is absolutely amazing or more specifically how B cell and T cells undergo somatic recombination to create specific antibody receptors for certain antigens in our body..all without us knowing. This process is happening all the time. I also love collaborating in groups, and trying to come up with the "best" answer in a clinical scenario, and helping others succeed and understand complex material along the way.

I am definitely tired, but I think that was my own fault of my time-management this past week. I am not used to having all this free time in the late afternoon/evenings so I filled it with studying instead. I also want to point out that yes, it is definitely a lot busier than undergrad, but for future MERP students out there it is definitely doable. I know I am only one quiz in, but if you study properly and set aside some time for yourself each week, you will do fine. You can do anything you put your mind to, and I honestly believe that we are always learning, so why not challenge that learning?

Off to make some dinner! Steve and I are having chicken (for Steve), Veggie patty (for me), and big bowl of ceasar salad (for both...no bacon bits though :)). Yum.

Keep me in your thoughts this week and know that even though I don't have time to post every week, I am thinking about it 24/7!

Bye for now,

E xo

The Time Has Come

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

The Time Has Come

Hello my fellow readers, the time has officially come for me to start school this week! I have check-in this Thursday, in which I get my laptop configured to the system and meet my classmates, and Friday I get my picture taken for my student card and get access codes, a key fob, etc. I have come to realize that I may not be able to blog once a week like I had hoped. The reason for this is that current and past students are saying a day in the life of a MERP students looks like this:

8:00am-12:00pm: Lectures (Two 2-hour class lectures, one from 8-10, another from 10-12)
12:00-2:00pm: Lunch Break/Study Time
2:00-3:00pm: Academic Success Meeting OR Anatomy Lab

I am pretty much gone all day, and after I get back home, workout for an hour, eat dinner, and look over my lecture notes from that morning, it is already 10:00pm and I need to go to bed to get up and do it all over again. Yay. I know my scheduling is highly determined by time management skills, and thankfully, that is the one thing I know for sure I can do properly. From organizing my life in undergrad to the point where I would actually schedule "sleep" in my agenda, I know I can figure out my days here in Toronto. I am definitely excited to get started!

I will try my best to blog every Sunday or Monday (Ok..I know today is Tuesday...I am already not staying true to my word!), but by the sounds of it, I will be a lot busier than I thought I would be. I will know more in the next couple days as they will officially give us a schedule, outlining our days more in-depth. I also wanted to mention in this blog post of how grateful I am for my supporters. People have said some amazing and motivational statements and have messaged me some tear-jerking messages. From people who I know and love, to people who I would never think would read my blog, it is truly amazing to feel the love and support from all of you. Since moving up November 1st to North York, a month early before my school semester commencing, I really had some days where I questioned if I am doing the right thing. From a massive loan, to leaving my family, missing weddings, engagements, and birthday parties, I know I would be sacrificing a lot in the next couple years. A pleasant email from a fellow high school friend (yea Sydenham! lol) sent me the nicest message, which was facilitated by her reading my last blog post to encourage an act of kindness: "call or message someone who you haven't in many years, just to see how they are doing." She mentioned to me that: "If you aren't moving forward, what's the point? Staying stagnant does nothing, but if you go for something, at best you get what you have worked for, at worst it's a learning experience. What's there to lose? Even if you aren't sure if you are doing the right thing school or life or whatever, you are moving forward! And that's never a mistake." Wow thank you so much Chelsea! That message came at the perfect time :) Let's go for a drink soon!

All in all, I just wanted to say thank-you. If you have stumbled across this blog last week or have been a follower since Day 1...Thank You. This journey of mine will definitely have its ups and downs, and thankfully I have amazing people in my life to help me along the way. I am off to look over some notes, not much longer where I can voluntarily decide to do this, soon it will be "AHHH look over everything right now!" Highlight. Re-write notes. Write on the white board. Draw flow chart. Repeat. Repeat. Repeat. I know I am a nerd when I can't wait to do this.

Bye for now! And Happy December! <-- Do people say this? I don't know, but enjoy !

-E xo

Get Inspired

Tuesday, November 25, 2014

Get Inspired

Over the past couple weeks I have been lucky enough to travel home to my parent's farm for a visit and have met some amazing new people up here in North York. I wanted to write this post to let people know how important it is to surround yourself with people who are not only positive, but who want the best in life for you. As I have grown to the ripe old age of 26 (ok ok, I feel a lot older than 26), it has come to light the differences between close friends and acquaintances. As I have gotten older, I can feel myself wanting the comfort of having about five friends to call my "close friends" and I am totally okay with that number. I feel as though it is hard to direct your energy and your attention to about twenty friends, and at the end of the day, how many of those twenty could you call at any hour of the night to talk about something really important?

The reason that positivity in one's life is so important is that it tends to directly affect who you are. In 2010, I had a very bad year. Basketball sucked, long hours at the gym, Steve and I broke up, my parents were going through some tough times, and school was harder than ever. If it was not for the people and my teammates that surrounded me everyday, I honestly felt like giving up. I look back now and there are some days, if not weeks, that I remember laying in bed thinking "I do not know if I could get up and do this all again tomorrow with a smile on my face." But that's the thing, you don't have to act happy all the time, you just need to get up and get it done on days where you do not feel like doing anything. Like the infamous line goes "Everything happens for a reason", in which I some-what agree with, but at the end of the day I feel that we are in control of our actions. I could have packed up and gone home, some of my credits would have transferred back home in Canada, I would be a year behind in my studies, I would be a regular student with no basketball, with a lot of debt. So I sucked it up, surrounded myself with some amazing people, kicked butt in practice, and studied hard. Life is not about putting a smile on because you have to, it is about knowing that somewhere else in this big world of ours, someone would love to be in your position right now. Someone would love to play basketball and graduate with no debt, and someone would love to make those friendships that you so deeply needed to get through those tough times. Life is way too short to settle for something less than you are capable of and you are SO much stronger than you think you are. I learned that the hard way.

 

When my sisters and I were little, and if we got hurt playing in the mud, riding a horse, or a grade 5 little mischievous boy broke our heart, my dad would always say: "You're a Cronk girl, nothing can hurt you". To this day, I literally keep that saying with me. Because even though my dad was saying that to stop the tears from slowly running down our cheeks, there is a lot of truth to that statement. I do not think I would have made it through the U.S without knowing what hard work really is, and persevering when your life seems like it's going to hell in a hand-basket. My parents have done a wonderful job in showing us that nothing in this world comes easy, and that you might as well work hard now, so you can enjoy anything you want in life later. Thanks to them, I can not wait to begin this medical school journey. 

 

What I want you to try and do this month (it is the season for giving right?!):

-Be the reason someone wakes up one morning and smiles
-Call or message someone who you haven't in many years, just to see how the are doing

-Plan a trip for next year. Just for you. Even if it is for a night

-Talk about something that you have needed to get off your chest with that certain someone

-Be gentle to those that seem like they do not need it

-Do not go to bed angry

- Kiss your pets a lot!

 

Off to The Humane Society in North York to see if we can walk some dogs today! Stephen's idea!

 

Bye for now, 

 

-E 

Cranial Nerves

Sunday, November 16, 2014

Cranial Nerves

It is Sunday morning around 10am and as I sit in my wonderfully tiny abode, I am surrounded by textbooks, highlighters, a white board, and various colours of markers. The time has officially come for me to start my studying, and sadly, I could not be more excited.

My course does not start until the first week of December, so "why is she studying?" you may ask yourself..and for an ingenious reply, I say "because I'm Emma Cronk." For the people that know me, I study because I actually enjoy it. I read to learn. I do not read casually, I do not "read for fun" like my little sister who finished all The Hunger Games books in about five days (crazy girl!). I have learned to read with intent on learning something, and I have always been that way. Not saying curling up on a couch with some tea and a great novel is a bad thing, it is just something that I have not been able to do ever in my life. Throughout undergrad, I had to read frantically to keep up to the pace of basketball and my courses, I had no time to grab an interesting read and sneak away into the library, I had to study to make up for lost time in the classroom. As I sit here now with all of my books open in front of me, I can't help but sit back and remember the last time Iactually studied. Yes I studied for my MCAT, which was brutal, and yes I studied for my CPR-C course and Standard First Aid, but when was the last time I was really excited about the material and information was easy to grasp because so? That would be the year 2011. Way back. I say way back because in a couple months that will be four years ago...do I still have what it takes to study? Do I even remember how to do it? Do I still have the discipline to get up at 6am and look over my material?

The answers to these questions were answered loud and clear on Friday night when I was studying cranial nerves. Yes...this was my exciting Friday night. I had read in numerous blogs and from asking advice from current and past medical students that buying a white board with markers is the BEST studying tool. It is a form of active studying, rather than passive studying. The difference is huge. For example, you can read a textbook in a stationary position for hours, maybe underlining some key phrases or maybe even highlighting, but are you really learning the material? Has it really sunk in? This is what I call passive studying, as you are not fully engaging your brain about the material. When you are up at a white board, you are moving, you are engaged, you are writing out important phrases and drawing images over and over and over again. You are using your brain's full capacity. You are actively studying the material so your brain can reiterate it on a quiz or exam. For me, writing things out over and over again ingrains it in my mind, and for medical school, you can not just memorize verbatim, you need to be able to understand how all the information ties into one another. So there I am, cracking open my brand new "Essential Clinic Anatomy" textbook for the first time since purchasing it ($15 down from $100..booyah!...gotta love Amazon) and opening the chapter to cranial nerves. For current MERPers and past MERPers, (the course that I am enrolled in before I attend Ross University), they say if you are eager and want to look over material before you begin, study glycolysis, TCA, and cranial nerves. Those will haunt you forever in your medical school path and give students a lot of trouble. Throughout my undergrad and majoring in Biology, my glycolysis background is pretty strong, as well as TCA also called citric acid cycle or Krebs cycle, so I thought I would start with the cranial nerves. All 12 of them. Yikes. Here is my mnemonic:

Oh
Oh
Oh
To
Touch
A
Female's
Vagina
Gives
Vinnie
A
Hard-On

So rude eh? haha But I found that many medical students need some enlightenment from all the studying they are doing, that almost every mnemonic has some rude connotation! Hilarious and it definitely helps with remembering. If you are ever bored, I promise you, you will get a kick out of googling some medical mnemonics. So what are the nerves?

Olfactory
Optic
Oculomotor
Trochlear
Trigeminal
Abducent
Facial
Vestibulocochlear
Glossopharyngeal
Vagus
Accessory Spinal/Spinal accessory nerve
Hypoglossal

I did that without looking at my notes! That was since Friday night. I think I have them memorized. What I learned from Friday and the fact of studying pretty hard four years later, is that I have nothing to worry about. I learned the nerves and most of their function by writing them on the white board only twice. Fortunately, I have a photographic memory, meaning I can remember the terms I had written previously even when the white board is blank. I remember how to train my brain to study, and by using this white board and coloured markers, I am ready to tackle this material. I got excited knowing it came back to me really quickly, and it felt good knowing I still got it :) For all students, high school, medical, law, or still in undergrad, I fully believe that our brains are structured to learn anything we want to, no matter how complex. If you need a change from the traditional passive studying, buy yourself a white board, get in a group and start practicing. It will honestly change the way you learn material. It definitely worked for me in the past, and even more so now.

Off to dive in a bit deeper with our amazing brain of ours, wow we are complicated beings, but I don't need to be in medical school to know that!

Bye for now,

--E xo

"You Will Have No Time"

Sunday, November 9, 2014

"You Will Have No Time"

The one thing that I wish I had not done before medical school was read an enormous amount of blog posts detailing the trials and tribulations of current medical students. Somewhat similar, but vastly different at the same time, medical students do not hold back how they are feeling at times in their respective blogs (I will probably be one of those students soon enough). The more I read, the more that I am fearful of the rigorous curriculum, but then I have to remember that I obtained a Bachelor of Science degree while simultaneously playing collegiate basketball; I know I can do the volume of work. The main theme that I have gathered from these blogs is the lack of time to do pretty much anything other than studying. STUDY STUDY STUDY they write, and to which I completely agree with this statement, I feel that a balance in medical school is essential to success.

Before even heading down to the island of Dominica, I already understand that my time will be limited, as I will be in lecture halls, anatomy labs, clinical labs, and community events for the majority of each day. I know that I will deliberately have to make time to do the things that will keep me sane. One of these scheduled hours will be working out and staying active. For the people that know me quite well (or even slightly), know that working out (for me) allows clarity of the mind, burning off steam, and getting up out of my study chair to gain a sense of different scenery. I feel as though if you do not have that one thing a day that you can mindlessly do for one hour out of the day, your brain will literally overload itself with all of the medical information. Some posts I have read: "You HAVE to make time for yourself, whether it is 20 min or 10 min each day...", but I do not think that is enough time to have for yourself to get away from the hustle and bustle of the island or wherever you are in medical school. Having that 60 minute window to fully let everything go, from worries, frustrations, fears, and stress, is key to staying on track in becoming a physician.

My program for MERP does not begin until December 9th, and I am trying not to let blog posts damper my eagerness. I have all the required textbooks and will be slowly going over material (high yield material like glycolysis and TCA), which can only help me when the information increases in complexity. I remember vividly at my time in Binghamton where I literally studied for twelve hours on a Saturday and twelve hours on a Sunday. We had a tournament that week and I had missed a majority of my classes. I had a lab final I had to make up, a population ecology paper I needed to hand in, and on top of that I had an exam in Microbiology and Genetics. In addition, we also had "optional" workouts that weekend, and for every student-athlete reading this, we know that "optional" really means "mandatory". In my interview for Ross University I said proudly that I have done the twelve hour days of studying, and I am aware of  the sacrifices it takes to become successful in academia. It is hard to portray how hard I have worked in undergrad, as there were a few tearful phone calls home throughout the four years detailing that I do not know if I can get up and do it all over again the next day. Subsequently, here I am. I survived and that is the same attitude that I am bringing with me. Nothing can stand in my way and I cannot wait to learn the material that MERP is going to throw at me!

I am off to look over my Histology and Essential Clinical Anatomy textbooks, is it sad that I am actually excited? haha

Bye for now,

--E xo

Change

Monday, November 3, 2014

Change

Whirlwind. This one word has literally summed up that past two weeks of my insanely fast-paced life. From moving completely out of Kingston into North York, Stephen and I can finally take a deep breath in and exhale veryyyy slowly.

Let me start off by saying that Kingston has treated us incredibly well. From making an impact at CrossFit Limestone almost immediately arriving from Australia (thanks Bob) and Stephen securing a Fitness Manager spot at Goodlife downtown, we really have enjoyed our time here. On our last coaching day this past Saturday, I had to hold back the tears as it would be my last time coaching the CrossFit Limestone Juniors class. I loved coaching these little guys and to see how much energy they had at 9am on a Saturday, I wish I could bottle up some of it and take it with me to medical school. Their 'thank yous' and high-fives at the end of each class always brightened my day, and with Stephen coaching the pre-teens in the adjacent room at the same time, we would always swap a quick smile in-between activities...you could say I was truly happy coaching on Saturdays :) After saying good-bye to our dear friends at CrossFit Limestone, it was off to the big city! Crazy how December is slowly creeping up on us...even though the weather indicates winter is definitely headed our way.

The reason I titled this post "Change" is because of a tremendous shift in my life that I had to make last week. I had to put my eighteen-year old cat down that I have had with me since I was twelve years old. For some, this may seem trivial, but let me tell you...she had and will always have a very special place in my heart. A local vet had found her on the streets of Sydenham and when I was in Grade 7, my mother and I had stopped into the animal hospital where the Doctor had been waiting for us...he knew who to call when there was an animal needing a great place to live...the Cronk household. As soon as I saw her I realized she was not a kitten, and she must have had a litter a couple weeks before the Vet found her, she was cuddly, adorable, and in an instant I named her "Nelly"..she would be my best friend for fourteen years. In the eight months that I was in Australia, I missed her greatly and for the few months that she was healthy in Kingston with us...I never would have traded those times with her for anything. She is now buried at my parents home and while I was with my mom at the vet, my Dad (the craftsman that he is), created a cross with an engraving of the dates that she was in my life: "1998-2014. Nelly <3 Emma" I couldn't hold back the tears as my Dad and I buried her peacefully and that my Dad took the time to create something so beautiful for the one constant thing in my life for the past fourteen years. Wow...I am very lucky to have such a supportive family.

Now that the sappy part of this post is over and that I know Nelly is with me on this next chapter of my life, I can move forward knowing I have made the right decision and that I gave her the most enjoyable life..snuggles and all. I received a letter in the mail today with her paw print on it from the animal hospital, before they wrapped her up, they inked one of her paws and gently placed it on a piece of paper with a heart around it...that was an indication that it is time to blog post once again and begin the healing process as writing does make me feel better :)

Thank you to everyone who has been such a supporter of this blog, my medical adventure, and Stephen and I. The amount of people who have personally messaged me and posts on my wall, it truly warms my heart that I have a massive support group. Stephen said it perfectly when we were at one of the most bubbliest and caring fellow CrossFit coach's house, who is not only a friend to us, but a great mother and a badass CrossFitter, Amy, that he did not expect when he moved to Kingston to gain about twenty new friends...it has been a blessing and one that we will take with us to the MERP program which starts December 9th. Thank you all for taking the jump with us and for believing in me that I can accomplish these next four years of becoming a physician.

I read a quote yesterday that said: " Jump now and worry about the landing later..." I find that very fitting for the time in my life right now.

My Life in a Nutshell

Monday, October 20, 2014

My life in a Nutshell

After leaving the United States in 2012, I felt like I was at an academic crossroad. From literally training forty-five hours per week PLUS university studies, to sitting on the couch at my parents' farm twiddling my thumbs with no responsibility...it took a good three weeks for me to stop having a pity party for myself. I remember I would get so angry for no reason, maybe because I missed the regiment of basketball and school? Maybe it was that I just missed basketball? Maybe I did not want to be at my parents' farm at 23 years of age with an amazing degree with nothing to show for it? I had to slowly take a step back from my life and ask myself: "What do you want to do now?" For me, this was a very tough decision. Do I go overseas to play professionally? Do I apply to Queen's like every single Kingston girl does? Do I apply to Toronto and pack up my stuff and head for the city? What I decided to do was: work.

I have realized over my five total years in the states was the fact that student- athletes have no time to have a job. Basketball was our job. We would eat, sleep, train, repeat...and we needed every ounce of spare time to study and eat more (ok..maybe that was just me!). I remember being on an away competition to Maine University, which is a grueling 10 hour bus ride to the most coldest gym EVER..ok..maybe because it is used for both a hockey rink and basketball court, but I could never forget that gym. It is the most dreaded away game that each athlete despises because you miss at least two to three classes that week. For me, missing three classes of organic chemistry, plus my labs puts me back about a weeks worth of reading. I was lucky enough to meet some amazing students in my classes that would help me out tremendously, with giving me photocopied lecture notes, stapled together, and dated (Sarah..I don't know what I would do without you!) I always made sure my little light above my seat was bright enough to study on the bus, as I would always bring my books with me. If the entire bus was pitch dark and everyone was sleeping, you would notice a little light in the back where I would be going over what I had missed in those couple days. It was a tough four years...to say the least. Point of the anecdote: I had no work experience. Problem: real world likes work experience.

I decided to move to Kingston and work at lululemon athletica. It was there where I had met some amazing people who motivated me beyond my own expectation of myself. It was refreshing. Very refreshing and it was during that time I really learned about myself. I still talk to many "lemons" and I am grateful to have worked at such a fantastic Kingston store. That being said, I finally had some customer service experience, cash handling, shift-work, late night and early morning product stocking-I could feel myself itching to move on to the next best thing. Traveling! I was fortunate enough to travel the world before I finally settled down and applied to medical school. I encourage everyone to go to a country they would love to go to..just do it. Set a date. Buy a plane ticket. Buy a cute dress (or shirt and pants for the guys :) ) and just go. You will be forever changed. I promise you. From Australia, New Zealand, to Vietnam, I have learned tremendously about myself that I could have never learned inside a classroom. It gave me the motivation to figure out what is important to me, which I am so thankful for. So here I am, at age 26, finally pursuing medicine and I do not think I would have gotten here if I did not work, travel, reconnect with Stephen (that is a whole other blog post haha), and really find myself. Being a student-athlete is such hard work and having that end so abruptly, it is easy to lose yourself.

It is Monday Oct 20th and in about a two weeks I will be moving to Toronto to start my pre-medical course and I could not be more excited. I am anxious and nervous as well, but as soon as I start studying again I know I will remember how to do it! I am so thankful for my support system that I have, and for every blog post that I have ever read about medical school-a support system is the number one thing to have before you venture off. I am so lucky.

I have attached some pictures of my travels last year as they are too epic not to share!

Bye for now,

-E xo